Anonymous asked: How many AP classes are you taking and what time do you usually sleep? You seem so busy and do you ever get burned out?
I have three: ap eng lit, ap calc ab and I’m done with ap gov since it was only a semester class. I go to sleep at like 11 or 12. But it’s only because I either had a lot to do that day (work, practice) or I procrastinated on homework. To be honest, my schedule’s never been like this before. I’ve had a lot of time to myself the past few months and I got really bored of that. I hate not having something to do, it kills me.
There’s a reason why I like to keep myself occupied, I don’t just do it because I want to - I have to. Having something to look forward to all the time is what keeps me sane. I think the reason why I used to always feel hella down, hella easily was because I never got my ass up and did something about it. I’d rather be ‘burned out’ than lazy as hell.
And yes, I do get burned out every once in a while. Usually I go out every weekend but last Saturday, I just had to stay home and go to sleep/rest. I don’t remember the last time I spent a Saturday night at home but it felt nice to give myself a break. I’m never home, honestly. I feel like I have no business to be home unless I need to shower, sleep, organize the space I have. I feel kind of bad though because I basically never see my family but my dad and sister don’t live with me anyway, and my mom’s always at work. But still, I feel like I should be home more often.
That Saturday I spent at home, when my mom came home, she was soooooo happy. She came up to me and started kissing me and saying stuff like ‘aww, are you okay? I love you!’ - I was just like damn, am I really not home that often? I don’t know. I hella strayed off topic, haha.
But anyways, yea, I like feeling like my own boss. I dictate my own schedule and it only proves that I’m more efficient by myself. It gets lonely sometimes but that’s why I keep my friends close. For the first time, I’m really doing me. I’m really proud of myself for that.
10:48 pm • 30 January 2012 • 26 notes
The only hw I like to do :p working on a Monday till 9. Hmph (Taken with Instagram at Great Mall Food Court)
4:36 pm • 30 January 2012 • 28 notes
No makeup. With the exception of eyebrows, haha. There’s no one to impress at workouts, er going out in general I guess.
10:19 pm • 26 January 2012 • 167 notes
Thoughts.
It’s my very last semester of high school and I must say time honestly flew by so quickly. So much has changed over the years and especially over last summer. I would have never expected to see myself in this position. I can’t say I’m at my best but I’m doing better, and I’m trying really hard to maintain happiness/motivation, and getting to where I want to be. I may slack here and there but I won’t let my set backs get the best of me - or at least I hope I don’t. I don’t know, I’m really anticipating and anxious to see how this year will pan out.
It’s a scary thought. By the end of this year, I’m going to be a completely different person - status wise. Right now, I’m 17 and in highschool, by the end of this year I’ll be 18 and in college. It may be only a step higher but it’s a huge difference, really. God knows who I’ll end up being but I only hope I’ll be a better me. I think about it a lot too. I don’t even know if I’ll still be in the bay because I haven’t decided whether I want to move out or not, if I could.
If there was one place I could move to, it would be San Luis Obispo because I am in love with the environment and atmosphere over there. It makes me so angry and bitter over the fact that I was unable to apply to cal poly slo because of my mom; I have so much bitterness towards her for that but I guess I understand her reasoning. Well actually, I don’t but what can I do about it now. Anyways, I’ll most likely still be around here but a part of me feels the need to let go of everything over here and start off fresh somewhere else. But I honestly can’t do that so easily. I have the best people I could have ever asked for, living here, I have a great job, the best weather; you know what they say, ‘when you have a good thing, don’t let it go’. Hmm.
School, work and now badminton have been the only three dominating my mind lately. Starting next week, I’ll be working 4-5 days a week, going to badminton practice/workouts every weekday, while having school and a social life to juggle. I’m glad I’m keeping myself busy, it’s my choice to be doing so much. But if only people knew why I like to maintain such a hectic schedule. I don’t do it just because I’m bored and have nothing else to do; that may be my reason I give out to people but it most certainly isn’t the truth.
I don’t know, trying to keep yourself occupied and motivated is a really hard job. It’s really up to no one else except you and you need to maintain self-discipline in order to keep moving forward. I just hope that all of this will pay off one day. And that maybe life will finally provide me with something that will take my breath away, give me more of a reason to keep doing what I do, live, love - smile. I’m trying my best to be as patient as I can. God knows how hard I’ve been praying and asking for something to come along. But I’ll keep in faith, trust. He has something great for me, I know it.
10:19 pm • 25 January 2012 • 42 notes
This is me everyday at school. Most of the time I really don’t know what I’m wearing, lol. In the morning, all I’m thinking to myself is ‘omg, I can’t be late’ and I throw on anything I find that seems comfortable, haha.
If there’s one thing about me anyone should know, it’s that I just love to be comfortable. And I’m really lazy - BUT that’s a habit I’m in the process of changing because laziness + potential = not good.
Anyways, I just felt like showing the part of me aside from all my pictures on tumblr. I like to be comfortable in my own skin, especially at school. And LOL at my friend Cody in the background hahaha.
4:33 pm • 24 January 2012 • 82 notes
